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Do you ever feel like you're drowning?
There is no one to help you?
Yeah I have... It seems to be happening more often than not these days...
The best way to describe it is I'm all alone in a tar pit and its slowly pulling me under.
I wont cry though, I will just grit my teeth and try to smile. I have never really been one to talk about my feelings. I'm just not comfortable with letting anyone in that close. I don't want to hurt anymore. I was hurt at a pretty young age by both of my parents when they got divorced. Me and my younger sister were used as pawns in the divorce. Ever since then I have been EXTREMELY careful of who I let in and since the divorce I haven't let anyone in. I'm too afraid.
I feel like I'm not good enough for anyone. Everything I do is either wrong of not good enough. I'm getting to the point where I just feel like I'm a HUGE disappointment to everyone in my life. 
The evil tar feeling though of running a blade across my skin has crept back into my head a few times but I push it back. What am I to do? With no one to trust...I feel like I'm falling apart and every time I try to pick up the pieces I drop another piece, forever in an endless circle. I feel like I need to cry and just let it all out but crying makes me feel weak and I don't know how to handle that emotion.
  • Mood: Lonely
  • Listening to: Hope Will Return and Return
  • Reading: Lily of the Nile
  • Watching: nothing
  • Playing: Destiny
  • Eating: Souls
  • Drinking: Air


Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
My name is Alex. You dont need to know where I live. I am an unknown age. I like to listen to music and have a good time with my friends. I dont like people who cause drama, so if you do just walk away.

Current Residence: P-town
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Favourite genre of music: Rock
Operating System: Windows Vista
MP3 player of choice: itouch
Favourite cartoon character: Scooby doo
Personal Quote: Dream like you will never die, but live like your going to die tomorrow

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steph--95 Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2015
hey thanks for the fav!! :glomp: :happybounce:
luv2icesk8 Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
No problem!
MadMother88 Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday!
luv2icesk8 Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you! Sorry it has taken me like 6 months to reply. I have had some CRAZY things going on but hopefully I will be back soon!!!
MadMother88 Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
:D Nice to hear from you though, like, life changing crazy?
luv2icesk8 Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Nothing to life changing I moved out to California, but by the looks of it I might be moving back east.
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MadMother88 Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
MadMother88 Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm gonna try to be on most the day in orderofnevyah
WolverinePanda Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2014  Student General Artist
Llama Emoji-02 (Blush) [V1] Thank you for the watch it means a lot to me :heart:
MadMother88 Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
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