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Do you ever feel like you're drowning?
There is no one to help you?
Yeah I have... It seems to be happening more often than not these days...
The best way to describe it is I'm all alone in a tar pit and its slowly pulling me under.
I wont cry though, I will just grit my teeth and try to smile. I have never really been one to talk about my feelings. I'm just not comfortable with letting anyone in that close. I don't want to hurt anymore. I was hurt at a pretty young age by both of my parents when they got divorced. Me and my younger sister were used as pawns in the divorce. Ever since then I have been EXTREMELY careful of who I let in and since the divorce I haven't let anyone in. I'm too afraid.
I feel like I'm not good enough for anyone. Everything I do is either wrong of not good enough. I'm getting to the point where I just feel like I'm a HUGE disappointment to everyone in my life. 
The evil tar feeling though of running a blade across my skin has crept back into my head a few times but I push it back. What am I to do? With no one to trust...I feel like I'm falling apart and every time I try to pick up the pieces I drop another piece, forever in an endless circle. I feel like I need to cry and just let it all out but crying makes me feel weak and I don't know how to handle that emotion.
  • Mood: Lonely
  • Listening to: Hope Will Return and Return
  • Reading: Lily of the Nile
  • Watching: nothing
  • Playing: Destiny
  • Eating: Souls
  • Drinking: Air

Name:  Princess Selene Anastasia of Aexlrea, House of Dragis

Race:  Human

Gender:  Female
 
Age:  20
 
Appearance:  Selene has dark almost black hair that flows like waves to her shoulder blade. Her skin is slightly tanned, she has green eyes with flecks of amber in them. Her nose is small and freckled, her lips are mediumed sized and have a natural red tone to them. Selenes body type is average build but with slightly wider hips and broad shoulders. She has a small birthmark on the inside of her left wrist. 
 
History:  Selene was born with a twin named Alexander Hart, but they were seperated at birth due to a bargain that her mother made with a King that needed an heir, so her mother gave the King Selenes twin so she could move up in the political scale of the world that they seem to live in these days. As a young child Selene was being brought up to be a proper "Princess" for one day if her mother Lady Eyzana had her way, Selene would be Queen of some kingdom one day. Selene has never really had it hard but she hasnt had the easiest life either. But she always felt as though something was missing from her life, however she could just never place it.

When Selene was about 13 teacher Jasper told her of her missing twin. She asked him all kinds of questions trying to understand why her mother would do such a thing as to give up one of her own children. She could now place what that empty feeling was. Jasper had told her that a lot of times with twins there is a special connection between them. So finally Selene had the courage to ask her mother of Alexander. Her mother told her to never speak of his name again, and to just forget about him. Ever since then she did just that. However she has never forgotten about him or gone long without thinking about where he was or what he was doing.

By the time Selene was 17, she was able to speak in multiple languages, was skilled in history, politics, mathamatics, equestian, fencing, hunting and dancing. She was what her mother called an "Ideal" match for any man of status. Selene could only roll her eyes every time her mother said something like that. Soon Lady Eyzana got sick with the fever, which at the time there was no real cure for. Selene did everything she could to help her mother but eventually her mother passed. Soon after Selene didnt know what to do, so she went to the temple to talk to her Goddess Ruzia. Her family practiced the worship of Ruzia for as long as she can remember. After hours of praying to her Selene had fallen asleep in the temple but before waking she dreamt of Ruzia speaking to her and telling her to find Alexander. That they needed each other...

 Personality:  Selene is generally in a content mood but keeps quiet. She keeps herself guarded from most people. She isnt to keen on letting people in, she learned at a somewhat young age that when the people you love get taken away from you it is one of the most terrible feelings in the world. The less people she cares about the better. Selene rarely gets for her Goddess Ruzia teaches to be forgiving and compassionate. However being human she does sometimes get mad, when she does she tries to walk away from the situation. If she cannot she will put a fight if needs must.

Weakness:  Selene is human so much of what can kill a human can kill her. Stab wounds, sickness, etc...
 
Weapons:  A bow and arrow, and her fathers sword.
 
Abilities:  Selene is very skilled with both her fathers sword and her bow and arrows. She can fight with her fists, but perfers not to. She doesnt know it but Goddess Ruzia has gifted her with the power of sight. The sight of the goddess will allow her find her bother and whatever else that her heart truely desires.


  • Mood: Peaceful
  • Listening to: my thoughts
  • Reading: the screen
  • Watching: nothing
  • Playing: a melody in my head
  • Eating: cheez-its
  • Drinking: wa-wa
Do you ever feel like you're drowning?
There is no one to help you?
Yeah I have... It seems to be happening more often than not these days...
The best way to describe it is I'm all alone in a tar pit and its slowly pulling me under.
I wont cry though, I will just grit my teeth and try to smile. I have never really been one to talk about my feelings. I'm just not comfortable with letting anyone in that close. I don't want to hurt anymore. I was hurt at a pretty young age by both of my parents when they got divorced. Me and my younger sister were used as pawns in the divorce. Ever since then I have been EXTREMELY careful of who I let in and since the divorce I haven't let anyone in. I'm too afraid.
I feel like I'm not good enough for anyone. Everything I do is either wrong of not good enough. I'm getting to the point where I just feel like I'm a HUGE disappointment to everyone in my life. 
The evil tar feeling though of running a blade across my skin has crept back into my head a few times but I push it back. What am I to do? With no one to trust...I feel like I'm falling apart and every time I try to pick up the pieces I drop another piece, forever in an endless circle. I feel like I need to cry and just let it all out but crying makes me feel weak and I don't know how to handle that emotion.
  • Mood: Lonely
  • Listening to: Hope Will Return and Return
  • Reading: Lily of the Nile
  • Watching: nothing
  • Playing: Destiny
  • Eating: Souls
  • Drinking: Air

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Alex
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My name is Alex. You dont need to know where I live. I am an unknown age. I like to listen to music and have a good time with my friends. I dont like people who cause drama, so if you do just walk away.

Current Residence: P-town
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Favourite genre of music: Rock
Operating System: Windows Vista
MP3 player of choice: itouch
Favourite cartoon character: Scooby doo
Personal Quote: Dream like you will never die, but live like your going to die tomorrow
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MadMother88 Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2015
Happy Birthday!
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luv2icesk8 Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you! Sorry it has taken me like 6 months to reply. I have had some CRAZY things going on but hopefully I will be back soon!!!
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MadMother88 Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2015
:D Nice to hear from you though, like, life changing crazy?
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luv2icesk8 Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Nothing to life changing I moved out to California, but by the looks of it I might be moving back east.
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MadMother88 Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2015
hi
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MadMother88 Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2015
I'm gonna try to be on most the day in orderofnevyah
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WolverinePanda Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2014  Student General Artist
Llama Emoji-02 (Blush) [V1] Thank you for the watch it means a lot to me :heart:
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MadMother88 Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2014
Hi
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MadMother88 Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2014
I'm in madmothersroom
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MadMother88 Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2014
Hi!
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